When a small child falls down, all they really need is to be picked up by Mommy or Daddy and soon everything is okay. Sometimes a smile or an affirming word of assurance, or just sitting on their parent’s lap, lets them know it will be alright.  That’s what God does for me. He affirms me that I am his little girl and that He is right there to hold me.

It’s not about understanding my circumstances, but rather, knowing His love for me. “How Great the Love the Father has lavished upon us that we should be called the children of God” (1 John 3:1).

Joe often uses an example of when the kids were little. He would place them on a platform, like many Dad’s do, hold out his arms, and say,” Jump!” They didn’t question at all if he would miss them. They simply trusted him because they knew he loved them. He was their Daddy!

When Jessica was learning the “ABC’s” of God, she came home proudly after church, declaring in her high, sweet 5-year-old voice, “God is i-n-c-o-m-p-r-e-h-e-n-s-i-b-l-e! That means He is more than we can fully comprehend.” Then she recited the Scripture that went with that. “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?” (Romans 11:34). After that little Bible lesson, when situations arose in our lives that made no sense, Joe and I would look at each other and say, “Incomprehensible!” It became our buzz word to trust God.

 Incomprehensible!

To this day, I have found that it’s not about understanding everything. It’s about trusting His love for me that matters.

As I have walked, and often times trudged through the why questions of my grief journey, I’ve learned that if I cannot trust in God’s sovereignty then all I can conclude is that God is weak and something got by Him, or that He simply doesn’t care. However, I know that neither of those are true because He’s proven His power and love over and over to me both experientially and through His Word. I can either allow doubt and unbelief to intimidate me and rob me of sensing God’s presence, or live in the confidence of His love me.

After praying for me, a friend gave me Proverbs 3:5. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” As I meditated on it, I clearly saw that God never once directs us to understand Him with all our heart. But rather, He instructs us to trust Him with all our heart, leaning not on our own understanding.

I am also told to love Him with all my heart. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength” (Deuteronomy 6:5). As humans, we have been made in the image of God with hearts capable of loving Him, and this is exactly what the enemy of our souls tries to distort and stifle, as He did with Eve in the garden when he said, “Are you sure God really said that?” He tempts us to doubt the very character of God’s love and goodness to us.

The Bible tells us we CAN know and comprehend what He reveals to us as told us in Deuteronomy 29:29: The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.” I am so thankful He has revealed His love and goodness to us, which is what we can know, remember and cling to.

I’ve heard it said that “It is not my ability, but my response to God’s ability, that counts.” So my response-ability to God is to trust His love and to love Him in return. We won’t ever know all the answers or have all the explanations for things that happen on this side of heaven, but through His revealed Word we do know the character of His unfailing, unchanging, and unconditional love towards us. It’s so good, it’s almost incomprehensible!