April Perspective | Heart of Worship

On the night my daughters went to heaven, we pulled out pictures, scrapbooks, and school projects, reliving stories with and about the girls. God began to give us what I call “tokens from Heaven” to permeate us with hope during our loss. I pulled out a box of school projects from the basement and opened Krista’s Senior Art Project and began to read how she described herself in words and pictures. She talked about desiring to cultivate a heart of worship. 

The first page of this Art Project expressed her relationship with God. It was as if Krista were saying to us, Mom, Dad, don’t be sad for us. We’re good. We’ve gained everything! “For me to live is Christ, to die is gain” is true.

It read:

“Here’s a book about me. I wish in words I could explain to you my true identity, but the definition of identity is, “the condition of being one’s self, and not another.”

I was born in the city. I grew up in South Minneapolis, and I loved it! Every warm memory in my heart traces back to a little place I like to call home; the place where friends and family laid the foundation that formed me into the person I am today. At the age of three, I knelt down next to my brother and with his help, made the most important and influential decision of my life. I asked Jesus Christ to come into my heart. Although at the time I didn’t fully understand the impact of my humble little prayer, it has proven to be the most fruitful act I have ever made.

Like all kids my age, I have my share of talents, many interests, and hopes and dreams, but before I share them with you, it’s important that you understand, “For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain” (Philippians 1:21). Take away all material possessions, all my talents, and earthly desires, and I will be the same because of the life I have in Christ!

So now with that said, here’s a little book about me.”


We so often think of eternal life as something that happens when we die and put off thinking about it now. But Jesus described eternal life as knowing Him—right now:  “This is eternal life, that they may know you, the One True God and Jesus Christ whom you have sent” (John 17:3). We experience eternal life through a living relationship of worship to God through Jesus Christ which begins now and will be lived out through eternity.

At the end of Krista’s journal, she wrote her two favorite worship songs at that time. Both songs spoke of worshipping God as our number one priority in life. One was called, I Was Made to Praise You. It talked about glorifying God in every circumstance of life: good or bad. The other song, The Heart of Worship, described what true worship really is.

Krista had always loved to sing to the Lord. She was on the worship team at our church along with her brother Joey and myself. We lived across the street from our church and for a while, Krista’s job was to clean the church. You would often find her at church sitting at the piano singing songs of worship for hours, or at home playing her guitar as well as listening to many worship CDs. She discovered that a heart of worship is much more than just singing songs. This heart of worship is a lifestyle that flows from a heart of responding to God’s love. 

Worship and praise can be expressed in all areas of life. Krista desired to have a true heart of worship: her whole life surrendered to God. She discovered she could worship God whether she was working, playing basketball, painting, making music or loving people. She could love and worship God in every area of life through and as a result of an intimate relationship with Him. 


When the music fades, all is stripped away, and I simply come
Longing just to bring something that’s of worth that will bless Your heart
I’ll bring You more than a song, as a song in itself is not what You have required. You search much deeper within through the way things appear you’re looking into my heart

I’m coming back to the heart of worship, and it’s all about you
It’s all about You, Jesus
I’m sorry Lord, for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You, it’s all about You, Jesus!

King of endless worth no one could express how much You deserve
Though I’m weak & poor, all I have is Yours, every single breath
I’ll bring You more than a song, for a song in itself is not what You have required
You search much deeper within, through the way things appear
you’re looking into my heartWritten by Matt Redman

Physical death does not separate us from real life if we have a living relationship with the author of life itself. It comforts me to know that Krista’s relationship and life in Christ (as well as Nikki and Jessica’s), was not interrupted by her physical death, but indeed, continues for all eternity. Of course, that certainly does not mean I don’t miss her, but I know if given the opportunity to come back, I am certain she’d decline.

2 Corinthians 5:8 very clearly states: ” We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.”

Krista was far from perfect and was just beginning to really understand and live out this heart of worship on her journey of faith. She is not in Heaven because of her own goodness, but because she received God’s grace and forgiveness. She is continuing to experience God’s love and abundant life with all of Heaven. Now—she is truly living from a heart of worship.

When Krista was a senior in high school, together, we sang a song at her HS Senior Baccalaureate Service about eternity. She wanted her classmates to experience this heart of worship both now and for eternity. Click here @Krista’s Page and scroll down to watch us sing “In My Life Medley”. Continue on her page to read more about her and see her photo gallery. 

 To read more of my story go to my book page @After The Crash

I’d love to hear from you, so please scroll down and leave me a comment. 

Please remember that you are eternally loved. There was no beginning and there will be no end to God’s love for you!

Debbie L. Mayer



  1. Sandy April 14, 2019 at 1:37 pm - Reply

    This was so touching sis and really speaks volumes as we enter the final chapter of mom and dads life. So much spoke directly to my heart. I thank God for you and Joe and i know God is blessed by your faithfulness. Love you bunches and thank you.

    • Debbie Mayer August 20, 2019 at 8:10 pm - Reply

      So glad this touches your heart, Sandy. He knows what and when we need to hear something:)

  2. Char April 14, 2019 at 3:07 pm - Reply

    Happy birthday dear Ktista! So beautifully written and expressed Deb! Truly eternal truths!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • Debbie Mayer August 20, 2019 at 8:09 pm - Reply

      Thank you Char! You’ve been so faithful to continually remember AND acknowledge their birthdays! Bless you dear friend!

  3. Donna August 16, 2019 at 8:47 pm - Reply

    I’m so thankfu God led me to your story,or should I say His story because as the song says, to tell of my story is to tell of Him.

    • Debbie Mayer August 20, 2019 at 8:08 pm - Reply

      Yes, as the old song says, “I love to tell the story of Jesus and His glory; to tell the old, old story, of Jesus and His love!”

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